Being brave
was not on my ”to be” list
neither was being broken
but
beauty and grace
sure were
I did not know
what life would bring
but
I decided not to wait…
I looked for beauty
in books
tried to complete myself
by looking for other beings
lived in a bigger box
to be better
thought maybe
my horizons were broadened
began to” buy”
myself ”happiness”
BUT
the bills were paid in emotions
that were much more heartbreaking
than I thought they would be
there is always a
‘BUT’
that comes in between
what I am
and
what I want to be
Sometimes
it breaks me
sometimes
it sets me free
Now
I know the secret
to be happy in the future
it is
to live in the now
to be a butterfly tomorrow
first i need
to accept my caterpillar body today
the secret
my friend to a happy end
a lot of beauty and grace
is that
life won’t be found
in books and boxes
that are closed
sometimes its there
even when you are blue
that love is not
in how one looks
that grace is not
in stilettos and tight skirts
but all of it
is just
in
one’s
being
that happiness
is not something that can be paid for
and
all worth keeping
will not have bills
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