I wrote messages I would never send
The day you stopped being my friend
A heartfelt laughter came to an end
The day you stopped being my friend
I do not know who I will share my cigarettes with
or who will laugh at my lame jokes
I do not know who will read my poetry
and will help me take notes
of life and lessons and things in between
I do not know who would support me being vegan
and happily eat mushrooms and beans
I do not know who would send me good morning messages
and make me feel like I am the queen
for the day you decided to stop being my friend
brought doubts discomfort and things that can’t be explained
All I can say
is to think with a calm mind
but you would not because you hate this name of mine
I do not know till now
what made you decide I was there for just myself
believe me I did try to help
excuses and explanations are just defenses that are of no use
I hope someday you think of me
when you drink coffee and enjoy chocolate mousse
and understand that
the day you decided to stop being my friend
For me
a lot of happy things
and funny stories came to an end