I don’t know what I would have done without you

when he shot me

with his camera

I felt a bullet in my heart

I did not want to be remembered that way

I did not want to look back and see what I looked like

Ugly things and people are better forgotten

I did not want a photograph to be one more reason I was ashamed of myself

but he did it

without my consent

he did it

to prove something

I am actually glad he did it

I would not have seen how far I have come otherwise