I am 22 years old and I am having a major quarter life crisis.I am not ashamed to admit this and by no way does this mean I am losing the game.I have not given up on life.I am not a grey dustball that needs to be thrown into the garbage bin….I am just lost…..and I am not guilty for being lost.
I am in such a condition that my choice might hurt someone…that is one lesson I do not want to learn…that my decisions might make someone disappointed and I would have to live with that.
I haven’t had a good night’s sleep since eternity ago…this is not what I pictured my life to be like when I was 22 and reality does not match my head that is what stings the most.
Maybe I was never meant for things like this you know adulting…and working in office cubicles and eating lunch like it was a task….not enjoying the taste in my mouth.
I was told that if I studied hard enough I would make it…I did study….I worked hard….and I am still not making it….or maybe this is what making feels like…..because it is not made yet and it is in process…..maybe this is what process feels like…..in between the end and the beginning and a lot of things that do not have words to justify their existence….
If you are also having a quarter life crisis and reading this….know you are not alone 🙂
atleast that is a safe feeling…sometimes
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