PROMISES

I have

been

holding lit cigarettes between my fingers

hoping to feel the burnt of my heart in my lungs

I  have

been

trying to forget the smell that lingers

hoping to forget how heavenly you felt in my toungue

I have

been

walking leaving a trial of ashes behind wherever I go

hoping that you would somehow come across it someday

I have

been

the biggest idiot on the face of earth

and the most magniloquent blind person

for when I looked behind

even I could not find my trial

the ashes

seemed to have been blown away with the wind

just like your never ending

shallow

promises.